Ramblings of the lonely

What do I have to give?
What do I have to offer?
I don't have money;
I think I have love to give;
I don't have a career;
I don't have zip.
Where do I stand?
I'm viewed as an outcast by so many ;
Viewed as not fitting the norm;
Viewed as fat and ugly;
Viewed as worthless.
Someone who is doing something amazing but at the same time considered lower class and not worthy of love, companionship or caring. 
It's so very lonely and at times so alone. 
No one to turn to and tell them how I truly feel or what's going on in my mind. 
If I do I often get shouted down and told to grow up and be comfortable on my own because that's what life is.
I don't feel I can be honest about what I feel.
I'm always the one to make plans, to travel the distance, to make an effort. 
Always the one to call or initiate contact or make things happen.
Why do I bother?
Should I just continue on alone?
I do that anyway and keep motoring on but no one bothers to even check in and ask how I am! 
The people who are supposedly my friends.
Is this what it should be like?